Wednesday, December 31, 2003

In a few hours time, this year will end. That is serious to me. I've done a bit of self-reflection/reflecting, and I'm not so happy with myself. I could've done better. I'm thinking of the song Big Yellow Taxi and there was one part which was so true,"...you don't know what you've got 'till it's gone". *Sigh* This year was good, I tell you. It's like I don't want to let this year go. I don't feel prepared to face the next year, which is in a few more hours. I guess all of us feel that way. I think no one's ever prepared for a new year. This year seemed to fly past too fast! I don't want to grow older! (Take me to Neverland, someone!) I will turn 17 in a few more days...a year closer to the grave. Really.

I'm not celebrating the new year. I don't feel like it. I'm just gonna sit in my bed tonight praying to God. I'm not going to eat bbq, light the sky up with fireworks, do the countdown with everyone, or play really loud music. I don't see the importance, the significance, of it all. It's just to have fun. I really think the new year is the time for us to right our wrongs, for us to realize our mistakes. It is time for us to remember the good things in life and appreciate it, because the new year might not be so...promising. Has the world forgotten about God??? He's the one that has given us life to live another year!!! It's really sad...

Dear God,
I'm sorry for all the wrong doings I've done. I'm sorry for hurting other people's feelings. I'm sorry for forgetting you. Please be in my heart as this year comes to an end. Let me be reminded of your love...let me feel your grace again. Bring me closer to you. Bless the world, because it is dying. Bless my home. Shower your never-ending blessings upon my family. Give us strength to face the new year's challenges. Help us all God. We need you here...

Love your son, Lyndelle

I feel better now. I'm sure God will make a way for us all. I'm praying for the world tonight. My prayer will be a bit longer this time.

Well, that's all I have time for. I want to sit down and watch tv.

GOOD NIGHT AND GOD BLESS!

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?dael had a question at 8:06 PM