Monday, February 28, 2005

**Talk About IT Again**

Perhaps I'm writing too much about my driving. But I have to write about it. Helps me to build the much needed confidence.

I drove to Waterfront again today! Traffic was a tad bit heavy, and the red lights were so frustrating. But I made it, although a car did honk at me because I didn't put on my signal light when I turned into the lane it was on. My bad.

Also, I'm having a creativity block. I'm working on some rp (role-playing stuff), and I can't seem to get things right. I'm afraid of pissing my online friend off with all my rp shit and excuses. ARGHHHHHHH!

Good nite and thanks for visiting.

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?dael had a question at 8:40 PM

Sunday, February 27, 2005

**First Trip**

I drove to the Sunday Market this morning for the first time. The place was so freakin' crowded and the weather was so hot.

Just to let you guys know, there's very little to blog about these days. So don't be freaked if I don't blog everyday.

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

**Spider Fright**

While I was driving back from Tabuan Jaya, at the 3rd Mile roundabout, a spider fell to the bottow of the side window. It wasn't the small and normal variety. This one was bigger, had a slimmer body and longer legs. The good thing was that it was on the other side of the window.

*Scream*

I still get goosebumps thinking about it right now. Anyways, the spider remained there for a while, staring at me with its many little beady eyes. (The fangs! The fangs were huge!!!) Then, I suppose that because of the wind outside, it tried to come in. The bad thing was that my window wasn't all the way up. It should have been.

As I rolled the window up as fast as I can (you'll be surprised how fast you do it when the adrenaline rushes through your veins), its long legs were struggling to get it.

*Scream*

And all of this was happening when I was driving. It's fortunate that I didn't go off the road or something.

I have a serious phobia of spiders. I can't even look at their pictures (especially close-ups).

Being the paranoid person that I am, I got out of the jeep from the passenger's side. I was too freaked out to go out from the driver's side. Ughhhh...

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005


I can do it. I can do it.

The fear of driving is still within me, unless of course my friends are with me, in which case the fear turns to excitement.

I must and will not let all the comments that people give me bring me down. Advice will gladly be taken. Encourage me. Build me. Rectify me. But don't tell me how bad I drove. I know it already :) I'm an easy person to break down.

I can do it. I can do it.

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

**?**

Nothing to blog about today, except that my mom is coming back from Bangkok today.

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Monday, February 21, 2005

**Name in Japanese**

Here's something to cheer me up: my name in Japanese. Ready for it? Here it is:

Rinderure Raburense

It's "Lyndelle Lawrence" in Japanese syllables. Funny isn't it? You guys should try it here. I also have a direct link to the website in my links section. Be sure to check it out.

It's gonna make you laugh like it did me.

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

**Already Breaking**



It has begun. No one can stop it now.

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

**Errand**

At least, today, I have something to do. Like driving to the airport 3 times. That's probably the most times I've been there in one day.

1 Sent my dad to airport this morning at 6.oo am.
2 Sent my mom to the airport at 11.00 am.
3 Pick my dad up from the airport at midnight (this one's a real bummer).

My dad's attending some meeting in Penang while my mom's gone "vacationing" in Bangkok. Nah, I'm kidding. She's there for a Women's Ministry program.

How I wish I was getting on an airplane too.

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

**Nothing. Much...**

Nothing much happens these days.

I am struggling to write something worth reading, and nothing comes to mind.

My mind is just a void, a blank space now.

Oh yes. I've a thought. This thought goes out to one person and one person only.

I am seriously pissed at you for expecting sympathy from me when you did not offer me your sympathy when I needed it. Bitter isn't it, the taste of your own medicine?

You want sympathy, beg for it or please me. Either way, I'm not giving it to you. Get off my back and stop naming me. I don't deserve the names you call me.

Hey, I'm just your reflection. I'm just doing what you did to me. Karma. Bittersweet to me.

Luckily, all of my close friends are not like those people. I appreciate that a lot.

You think I sound pissed? Hmmm. I don't know. You tell me.

And all of a sudden, my mind is no more a void, a blank space. I've a lot on my mind now...

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?dael had a question at 7:34 PM

Friday, February 11, 2005

**I've Returned**

Finally back from LA. And guess what: I didn't have to drive there! My dad said that the road was dangerous with all the drunk drivers. Bad and good for me, an inexperienced driver. Bad because I could get into accidents. Good because I don't have to drive!

Thursday was painful for me, literally. I had like diarrhea, and plus, I had to endure 4 hours of travelling. Perhaps it was all the food I ate the day before from all the visitation. Sh*tting hurt so much, like all of my intestinal muscles forcing the sh*t out. After sh*tting, my *sshole hurt. (Censored)

After taking medication and lots of rehydration salts, I was better that evening, although my stomach (is it my stomach or intestines?) still felt a bit painful. So my cousin brought me swimming. Oh, by the way, I went to Batang Ai where the youth had a youth camp there before. Brought back memories...especially of rolling down the hill with Jessica and Chun. Anyways, when we were at the pool, we were harassed by some jerks. Those jerks, guys, asked me to have sex, drink, smoke, and some crap like that. I couldn't take it, so I left the pool. I cursed behind their back.

I arrived here exactly at 5.oo pm. I'm so relieved, and I can't wait to see my friends.

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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

**Change of Plans**

In my previous post, I stated that I won't be here on the first day of CNY. But, there's been a change of plans and now I won't be here on the second day of CNY. Reason? Many people invited us to visit them on the first day. Not a problem with me, since I want to go visiting too.

Now I have to fight for not driving to LA. I positively (or is it negatively?) don't want to. I'm not a good driver.

I bet tonight I won't be getting to bed early. All the fireworks are gonna keep me awake. What's bad is the fumes that come into my room. That happened last year. I'm sure it's gonna happen again this year.

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Monday, February 07, 2005

**Not Here**

On the first day of CNY...

I will not be here. I will be going to my cousin's place at Lubok Antu (otherwise known as LA). He keeps insisting that I go visit him, and this time, I cannot say no. I've run out of valid excuses to keep me home. So, I'll just go there anyway to please his heart and to put mine at peace.

What's worse, I might have to drive there. Did you get me? DRIVE there. LA is about 4 hours away from Kuching. That will be 4 hours of trying to keep up with my dad (he'll be driving too) and trying to keep awake.

The good news is that I will be there for only 1 night! I will heading back to Kuching (happily) on Thursday.

I so don't want to go :(

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Friday, February 04, 2005

**Lessons from TV**

Did you know you can learn --cough cough-- valuable lessons from watching shows on TV. One show in particular is American Idol.

Situation 1 Some people claim that they auditioned because their friends told them that they sing like a true American Idol. Ironically, they sucked big time. Even after being told off by the judges, they still rant on about how unfair the judges were.
Lesson Dishonesty can lead people to do stuff that would really embarass themselves.

Situation 2 People leaving the room with rejection, crying a river. Yes, sometimes the judges (especially Simon) can be a real pain in the ass. Some get hugged and comforted by fellow contestants.
Lesson Cry in a big crowd if you expect some sympathy.

Situation 3 Many contestants lack a sense of self. They absolutely totally CANNOT sing, and yet refer to themselves as "the next American Idol".
Lesson Ask for trustworthy advice before doing something you are totally ignorant about.

Situation 4 A contestant begged to be accepted because his brother got in. He begged real hard. And I mean real hard.
Lesson Desperation usually gets you nowhere.

The Last Situation Some people can really sing, some people really can't.
The painful lesson Hollywood is not for all of us.

Is Hollywood for me then?

So you see, who says TV is all bad? May we learn more from the TV.

Happy Sabbath!

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Thursday, February 03, 2005

**MMmmmm**

MMmmmm:
#1 As I took my shower this morning, I used a bit of Savlon Antiseptic Liquid. Do you know how antiseptic liquid smells like? Really nice to me. Do all antiseptic liquids and disinfectants smell the same?

Have you ever noticed how nice hospitals and clinics smell? Just wondering.

#2 The salad chicken rice at Central Park and butter chicken rice (with little butter) at Life Kopitiam. I'm craving...

#3 MMmmmm is not exactly what I'd use to describe Elektra. I'd rate it 3.5/5 ('cause I can't decide between 3 and 4). The movie could have had more action (she's a ninja, for crying out loud), and more of her in her sexy/hot red outfit. Gotta love the sais, though.

Click here for an Elektra picture from her own comic.

#4 Crackers and kaya manis for breakfast. Sweet duo.

#5 Red hair (and by red, I mean really red). Seriously. Maybe not on me lah, but definitely on Lindsay Lohan. If I could find a dye in a suitable shade of red (perhaps a subtle brown-red, not a bright red), I wouldn't mind dyeing my hair with it.

Please don't get me wrong when I say I like red hair. I don't mean that I love redheads more than brunettes or blondes. I just like the colour red in the hair.

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

**Hols Again**

Haha! CNY is coming, and I openly welcome its arrival and the holiday that it brings. There will be no music lessons next week! And that means I can stay home more and practice less. School-free life has made me more lazy. Hahahahaha!

And tomorrow, Elektra, here we come!

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