Wednesday, March 23, 2005

**Doing Things are Good**

Because they take your mind off things, like thoughts that bring you down. Work keeps my mind occupied that there is no room to think of sad stuff.

One form of work for me this week is the Youth Week of Prayer. All I do is play the piano, but I'm pretty concerned about doing the best for song service. So, I make sure the choristers and the guitarists know their stuff well. Nothing is worse than unpreparedness.

Another form is the Youth Festival on Saturday. I'm so ready to be drained of my energy (the festival is a staggering 7hrs 30mins program, from 9:00am - 4:30pm). I'm singing in the choir and in Eugene's group, choristering, acting, and maybe puppeteering (not sure about this one, though).

All this work is keeping me happy. I wonder what will happen next week when there isn't much to do anymore. And yet something in me can't wait until this week is over.

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Saturday, March 19, 2005

**Not So Anymore**

I can't bring myself to say "Happy Sabbath" to anyone now. If I say it, I'd be lying. Honestly, it's not that happy. Sorry that you people have to read me whine over and over, but it's the truth. I miss my friends more on Sabbaths. I mean like we will all hang out together, and my friends were my group. Sure I do mix with other groups, but just on the surface. Nothing like how I mix with my friends.

Again, I don't mean to whine, but I'm also not begging for sympathy from anyone. I feel...how do I say this...empty?

But I know I'll get through this. I always do and I always have. Or perhaps I'm living in denial.

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

**I'm Adjusting**

To my life without the few people who are normally in it.

I'm trying to move on by mixing with other people. Perhaps that's the silver lining: I get the chance to know other people a little bit more.

Hmmm. Not so bad after all.

But I still miss my friends badly.

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Friday, March 11, 2005

**I Miss My Friends**

I miss Elvina who left on Friday. My gurl. If she read this, she would know what I mean.

I miss Chun who, though he will come back again, went off on Monday. My companion in and out of church.

I miss Jason who just left today. My bestest best buddy. No one can ever replace you.

I can't sit still without thinking about them. I can't do nothing without having tears welling up in my eyes. I can't do anything until this heartache is gone.

They are my moral support, my comfort, my family. When I see their faces, I feel good. When I am down, their words cheer me up. Now, who am I gonna look to when I cry? Who's gonna bring me out on Saturday nights?

If I had one wish, it would be to have them and everyone else I love and care about to be around me forever.

I miss you guys.

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

**Results Out**

Here's my SPM results broken down:

A English, Mathematics, Physics
B Bahasa, Moral Education, Biology, Chemistry
C Additional Mathematics, History

I don't quite remember the 1's and 2's of the A's and B's. I can't believe that I got A for Physics! I'm quite relieved. So if you've read this, please don't ask me anymore about my SPM results.

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

**Wet Dreams**

Lately, I've been getting dreams of being in the water. You know, like open seas, pools, and other bodies of water...#fantasize#

Perhaps I miss the water. Perhaps I miss the feeling of being free in the water. And that is the feeling that I love so much. Being free!

As a kid, I used to swim so much, and swimming was the numero uno activity of my life. I would swim for hours that the chlorinated water "bleached" my hair slightly to a lighter brown and my skin bronzed by the sun.

I love the water so much and I just can't describe the feeling. Now I think I'm longing for the water. Bathing/showering and dark/murky water don't do much for me.

#Cough# Perhaps that's why I like Baywatch so much.

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