Tuesday, July 19, 2005
**Sighing Isn't Descriptive Enough**The KL trip was so great that I was reluctant to return home. Undoubtedly, I wasn't the only reluctant one.
Talk about the people at PJ church. The youth there were so nice to us. I felt right at home. Didn't make friends with everyone though, just a few. There simply wasn't enough time to get to know everyone of them. Oh God, I miss them.
There was this guy, not from PJ but Penang, I haven't met for years: Jayce Gooi. The last time I remember him was when I was only a kid. I confronted him (after garnering all my courage) on Friday night, asking him if he was from SAUC. I knew he was, but I didn't know what else to ask to start a conversation.
Guess what.
The next day, I was stuck to him like glue. I even
ponteng the activities in the afternoon just so I can talk to him. He followed us to the sundown worship at a park in Bukit Jalil and I spent half the night with him. One of the PJ AY girls joked that we were gay because we were so close.
It was that same night that I might never see him again. We said our goodbyes. He gave a hug. I was so sad (still am, actually). Honestly, I wanted to cry. The lump, prior to the crying, was already in my throat. I mean, he's such a great guy. Like I told Jason, who is back in Kuching, I'm absolutely sad and frustrated at the thought of the potential of being great friends with him.
I'd like to say we got along very, very well. Don't know if he felt the same way. Just wish we had more time.
Some time today, I wished I never met him. Spare me the depression. Spare me this sinking feeling in me.
Please don't get me wrong. I'm glad to have met him and to get to know him. The possibility to be great friends is there, maybe just really small. Being the pessimist I am, this possibility seems... impossible.
Penang seems so far away from where I am...
Think this post is long? These words are but the tip of the iceberg of my current being. The 10% that you can see. Let me heave one big breath and,
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
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