Friday, December 02, 2005

**CHRISTMAS...**

...and yet I don't feel the holiday spirit.

Yesterday, a friend of mine put up his Christmas tree. He asked me to help, but I politely refused. As he was decorating the tree, he looked like he was possessed or something. Maybe because he was really excited and happy about the arrival of Christmas day.

Then, I began thinking why I have lost my child-like appreciation for Christmas. Is it because I have outgrown it? Is it because my kind of Christmas celebration is like what is shown on the television?

It might be both. But I think the second question why I lost it.

On the shows on television, everyone looks so happy when they celebrate Christmas. Everything becomes alright. Everything becomes what it should rightfully be.

But that doesn't happen in real life. Real life sucks.

Maybe I just want too much. The want to be happy, to have everything perfect in my life.

And every Christmas brings me down. At least the ones before did. I just hope that this Christmas will be a happier one for me.

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?dael had a question at 10:07 AM