Monday, November 26, 2007

He is gone. The swirling waters took him, and pulled him under when he no longer had the strength to fight for a breath of air.

I still remember the last words he spoke to me when I met him in April this year.

"You need a haircut."

They made me laugh then. But when I think of it now, I feel the opposite. Those words have taken a totally new meaning. I wish there was more spoken between us. Who knew that those would be the last words?

I still see us playing duets on the piano when we were kids. I still see us running down and screaming in the hallways of our old school buildings. I still see us in our white-and-navy school uniform. I still see you as a friend.

We will meet again. In the mean time, rest in peace. You deserve it.

?dael had a question at 10:09 PM

Thursday, November 22, 2007

"I've left the website."

"Oh, yeah, it's on his left side."

Haha.

?dael had a question at 9:01 PM

Friday, November 09, 2007

All I wanted was for you to listen to me, to just hear me tell you what's on my mind and bothering me.

But you had to spoil everything by telling me what I should and shouldn't do. You told me that everything I've done and doing to fix this was wrong. You told me that I was wrong.

I know that I am wrong. I know that what I'm doing to pull myself through my not be the best means. But that was not why I came to you. I didn't come to you to have you tell me all that. Don't you think I know all that already?

I came to you because I thought you'd lend me your ear. I thought you'd tell me to be strong, and that no matter what, I'd get through this. Just LISTEN.

?dael had a question at 7:05 PM

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

For those of you who've kept me in your prayers, thank you.

Not many know that I'm going through a crazy time right now. I'm still trying to get my head around whatever's got me all messed up. I really think I've gone mad. And by the look of things, I'll continue to be this way until time heals me. I hope it won't take too long. I don't like living like this. I'm tired of hurting myself like this.

Continue to keep me in your prayers please. I really need them now.

?dael had a question at 6:28 PM